You do care. You care so much it’s eating you away. You hate the fact that you care so much but it’s the only thing you know how to do but you constantly lie to yourself just so you can get through the day.
We live in a pretty fucked up society. This all relates back to a bunch of “boys will be boys” mentality from parents. I get so pissed when I hear that. Like fuck bad parenting. ugh. This world.
On a positive not there are still decent people out there and it’s our job to try to be the best human beings we can and teach others to do the same.
Find a beautiful piece of art. If you fall in love with Van Gogh or Matisse or John Oliver Killens, or if you fall love with the music of Coltrane, the music of Aretha Franklin, or the music of Chopin - find some beautiful art and admire it, and realize that that was created by human beings just like you, no more human, no less.
Katharine Hepburn in Morning Glory (1933)
A downward spiral
is its own adventure.
You discover aspects
of yourself that cannot
be seen in the sunlight.
You experience the way
your body cools in the shade,
only to warm up again when
you absorb the pain and
use it to ascend once more.
I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday.